"We do not always
recognize the wilderness when we first cross its borders." Christie
Purifoy ~ Roots & Sky
It happened gradually
for me… similar to the sea.
At first, there were
calm waters… followed by a strong wave of misery.
Next, there were raging
storms… which made me so lost I couldn’t see.
Then, there was a lull
in the pain… Unfortunately, this just sailed me towards disbelief.
Suddenly, I'm in the eye of
the storm… The rain is so thick, the waves beat and beat me.
Finally, all is calm and it is night at
sea…
A deep, mesmerizing calmness exists on the open water.
This calm makes me
falter.
I wonder surrounded by
the great waters and full starry sky...
Was it all a fictitious
lie?
I really don’t know
what to believe.
Due to absence of strong
waves and the presence of extreme fatigue,
I wander and wonder vaguely sure…
Will anyone fine me?
I wander and wonder vaguely sure…
Will anyone fine me?
I am lost at sea.
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I would definitely
describe my wilderness like that of the sea. As I struggle through PCOS,
chronic fatigue, insomnia, and a weakened immune system. I truly wonder: ‘What
is happening to me?’
First there is pure sunshine like a beautiful day on the beach. Then, there is a flare up of issues like strong ocean waves. Next, there are rough seas with problems arising on all sides. Followed by extreme fatigue and feeling like I've lost 'me' and not sure of how things should truly 'be'.
What a relief to know we have a Lord who brings His children through the wilderness...no matter the scenery of that landscape.
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